it's so strange... we have so0o much to give but nobody wants it! We start out ryt but fall right after... we couldn't finish what we intend to do because we don't have that option anymore... yes my world is again dark... I often stumble and fall... I couldn't get off the feeling that my life is a joke! someone just wants to play a mean trick to me! I thought I got it all figured out... I fell but no one catched me... No one was there to let me feel some security... Now all I feel is that emptiness... That longing that what if we were together... and what went wrong... Is there some way to get things patched up? lately i've been thinking why is always that i am the one who always have to move on. Right now i just want to be felt like a person being loved... I want to feel the gentle smile you give to me... I want to be gazed upon with affectionate eyes... I want to find comfort in your arms... slowly melting my defences... I want my breath to be taken away... gently being suffocated... it sounds ironic that I want to be loved but I don't want to also... coz I know that i would just get hurt again... You know the feeling that you want to be loved but you also want the person you love to find happines even if it is not in your arms... Love is such an irony... but you still clutch to the hope that someone would find you and save you from this abyss... HOPE is what gets me through day that one day I would see the face of the one I would love... Not now but forever...Will the time come that someone would not leave me hanging? will the time come that I would be longed by someone.. that would worry everytime I would stay up late... everytime I go somewhere wishes me to be safe..Where is she? Can you find me already? I promise i'll never let you go... So please find me now... And don't let go... If there are problems let us not run away but lets work on the answers together...ok?
